syncronicity

Book club happened Friday night.  Saturday some synchronicity occurred.  Presently I am recording the event.

I was driving a lot on Saturday due to errands.  I heard Alanis Morrisette twice.  This was significant because we had discussed her during our night on friday.  I had teased my friend Emily because I thought she claimed she hadn't heard of Alanis.  I said "oh right, you were abroad in the nineties, I forgot."  We all laughed.

The second A.M. song that came on the radio saturday was the ironic song.  As it ended the D.J. came on and said "That was Isn't It Ironic, Fergie"

I was tripping on who is Fergie?, and then it dawned on me that he got the singer wrong, so I thought that was ironic.

That was exponentially Ironic.

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• I grew up believing that I had to base my estimation of my own value on external opinions. I have suffered from self loathing and even dysmorphia due to this deprecating belief system that our culture cultivates. Strokes. I needed strokes to feel loved. Psalm delivers a message that love comes from the inside, and it is ours to give generously, to ourselves, which ultimately benefits others (near and dear to us) as necessarily as it benefits the self.
• Psalm Isadora came to Salt Lake City in the summer. My sisters ( Jesse and Kristine) and I got to attend her evening session at City Centered Yoga on 9th and 9th. We were all impacted by her class. My sister felt a generosity of heart for her husband as a result of Psalm's message, and the practice she led us in. She taught me to direct the love from inside me towards my own heart and nurture myself with compassion and generosity as i would my daughters. She taught me about creation energy and how to harness it. Her practice is very powerful and celebrates the feminine. The breathing technique we did (tantric breathing) helped me to manifest a new kind of love. A self love that supports me in navigating this ship.

  Over the past five weeks I have been making better choices and have built momentum toward repairing my home space and my health. The preferred behaviors were proceeded by prayers and a vision of healing and moving forward. I was slowly able to release some negative habits, gradually I was able to change the direction I was in. My yoga practice has deepened with this new awareness she has helped me to arrive at. I practice with a greater compassion towards myself and others and highlight unhealthy thoughts or beliefs and release them.

  This empowerment impacts my leadership role in my Profession. My purpose is to change the world for students in our public school system. I get to be an Elementary Literacy Coach, and work among amazing women and men with the same purpose. I see the children in my building for their abilities, and not their deficits. My intention is to manifest large scale school improvement and student achievement. in work, as in life, I choose happiness, gratitude, empowerment, and laser beam focus on the miracles ahead. I am learning to train my response to mind chatter, and to shine a light on the negative thoughts, I am learning that we can attend predominately to the thoughts that create gratitude, peace, and joy.

  Psalm offers a message of empowerment. I am letting go of the need to seek approval. I am gaining a sense of inner authority.